I do not want to get married, ever!
The reality is: I believe nobody will love me enough. Everybody has issues.
I think I am the only one able to deal with my own issues in REEL-
time, and still 'behave' like a normal person.
Well, since that is clear.
I envision an empire that I can work through, and run on a daily basis, until retirement. I want 3 kids (possibly adopted). A wife is not necessary.
I am surrounded by women anyways, and I know the difference between juvenile-pretender and grown-&-evolving.
So if you find her, Lord. Send her to me. For I provide the oath that I will consistently attune to her needs and help her build up to a (emotional/spiritual/physical/intellectual) success. The rest is her own desire and her own drive.
Having said that Lord, if she is not out there, avoid sending me visitors who walk in and out. I AM LOOKING for permanence in my life, not exploration and entertainment.
I know how to cook, do dishes, do laundry, cut grass, paint a house, move furniture, put up pictures, decorate a room, buy groceries, pay bills, manage money, plan trips, execute while improvising, en-vision a future, and day by day -work to have it manifest. Will you bless me, Lord by providing me a companion?!
Or will you confine me to solitary imprisonment (in the mind) where my only escape is prayer, until the end of time?!
If i die today, Lord, I am thoroughly happy how my first 26 years incarnated turned out. But!!! Sorry to intrude on your Majestic-Highness... I desire more!!!
That is: A house & home with a wife and security.
A company to work through
My own side company to entertain my needs (I mean registered business)
So now that I am clear on where I stand, Oh Lord! Pick and choose?!
-Either it is a wife with a regular life where we break the monotany by travelling on a seasonal basis (and engage in wild love making in the process in the night time)
-Or make me a success in the financial realm, so I can see through that the business I envisioned will see the light of day, and I can give back through my success to individuals who matter/mattered/make a difference on a daily basis.
Thank you, for hearing me, Lord.
Mantra: -=[Regardless of the hardships] I [still remain in the eyes of the angels]